And why is that? Our just-turned-18 year old daughter decided she "needed some space." So she left Monday morning. To go where? I don't know. It's been a long time leading up to this, and I guess she just felt it was time. But she doesn't have a job, a plan, and I don't even know where she is staying. She decided that she didn't want to live by our rules any more. And not that there were really a lot of rules, pick up after yourself, be home by curfew, give us a general idea of who you are with and where you'll be. But that proved to be just too much for her. She's had some problems for years. Five to be exact. She was a difficult teenager, to say the least. And most of it can be attributed to her drug use. There, I said it. She is an addict. We tried for years to help her. When we found out, we grounded her, sent her to therapy, tried to keep her busy with postitive things, but that wasn't enough. She spent her junior year of high school in a rehab-type day school, and said she was clean and sober, but she wasn't. She found ways around it. Finally, a year ago, we had enough, and we sent her to a boarding school in Utah for "troubled teens." All girls, small town. She struggled a lot, but seemed to be making progress through the program. But then her version of "senioritis" hit, and all she could think about was leaving when she was 18. They couldn't keep her there after she turned 18 and she knew it. We picked her up two days before her 18th birthday. She came home with a home contract, and it worked for about five weeks. That was the beginning of this week.
It hurts that she has basically turned her back on us, her family. Me, her dad, and her 2 younger brothers and younger sister. For ten months, all she could think about was coming home, and when she finally came home, she wanted to leave.
I feel sad, hurt, mad.
Ok, anyway, for my first blog post, I didn't mean it to be such a downer...but I'm sad.
And now my youngest daughter wants to watch Mulan 2 with me. At least she still wants to be with me...
